I Found Love

I started my journey in this world

With loneliness on my soul

I could no longer see the beauty of the sun

For I have spent my whole life to run

I could no longer hear the harmony of melody

For I have drowned myself deeply in my own serenity

Until one day, my whole world did change

The beating alarm of my heart spontaneously rang

I did finally meet him in one cherished occasion

My gut unswervingly telling me to join our hearts under one nation

I always believe that love is one intermittent entity to be found

But not again, for now I have found love in the way he laughs

At first I thought I heard an angel’s voice, but I was wrong

It’s just his laughter filling the empty space on my mind

I also found love in the way he gazes

I thought I saw a twinkling shiny star, but I was wrong

It’s just his dazzling eyes flying me to the seventh sky

I never dreamed to find such love

Love of an ordinary me to a wonderful him

Love of an ordinary me to a heavenly beautiful him

Love of an ordinary me to an utterly perfect him

O, God, please forgive me for I can’t stop loving him

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This poem has been in my so-called "collection of poems" folder in my laptop for quite sometimes. I have submitted it to a zine, but unfortunately my work could not make it to the selection stage. However, I really want to publish this poem somehow; that is why I decided to publish it here. Hope you guys enjoy it! Let me know if you have something to say about this poem, I'll appreciate your candor so much :D

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Good luck (with your mid-term tests) and have a wonderful month!

I could no longer see you

In one November noon,

Rain drops the memories of you  

I could no longer see you

Oh my dear, how are you? 

December comes fast

End this painful year

Erase my memory of you

I could no longer see you  

I am lying on my bed 

When sad song marching in my head 

Taking me back to the time 

When you and I are one 

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Created by Me. Niatnya buat tugas puisi bikin lagu, tapi ga ngerti melody nya gimana, anaknya ga musik banget. 

Siblingmance

Hi guys! been such a long time since the last time I posted something here. 

So, this afternoon, I was playing a role play with my two sisters and 1 very cute bro. I was pretending to be a tourist while they all became locals. As a tourist, ofc I used English while trying to communicate with them. Here are few examples of our funny conversations.

Me : Hi, what's your name?

Yasmine : My name is Yasmine

Me : How old are ya?

Y : I am eight years old

Me : Oh I see, Yasmine.

Y : Yes, My hobby you know singing

Me : well.... 

(Nobody asked about your hobby, yasmine haha. JK)

Me : and you, what's your name?

Dimi : Dimitri

Me : How old are you?

Dimi : yes yes!

Me : Huh? I am asking your age. It's not a yes/no question

Dimi : No. No!

Me : Well, dimi. I'm gonna ask you again. How old are you? Four or Five?

Dimi : Five eh..Four...eh Five and four (bebassss)

Me : Haha okay I guess you're five years old. right?

Dimi : No no!

(couple secs later)

Dimi : Yes yes!

Me : Huh? 

Dimi : abjah7238aklh (speaking randomly in I don't know what language he used)

Me : I don't understand what you're saying. 

Dimi : aihewiowownncijsieyiqi (continued to speak randomly)

Me : Cmon, I don't understand. Speak English!!

Dimi : THANK YOU! *yelling* 

-HAHAHAHA-

Me : haha well, nice to meet you then.

Dimi : naiz cu miz yu 

I love them so muchhh. I can't imagine how my life would be without having them around. 

Nineteen

14/2/1995

Cries cracked down in the midst of silence inside the hospital room. Many would suggest the baby to come back again into the warmth of her mom's womb so that she shouldn't have to feel the bitterness of life, while others would happily suggest her to embrace it so she can taste kinds of sweetness that life will give to her. A baby girl was born on the Valentine's day, and I my friend, I was that baby.

14/2/2014

That baby now has been  a university student. She is no longer the baby the story told. She doesn't have to wear diapers or blanket anymore. She has been living on this magnificent earth for nineteen years. Although she hasn't lived longer than her parents, she has gone through the bitterness and sweetness of life as what have been told by people earlier on the day she was born. This kind of eerie feeling comes by to say hello to her. That feeling wants to remind her that she only has one year left before she turns into 20 which means that she will become an adult next year. She will be burdened by bigger responsibility than before. That feeling also reminds her that sooner or later she will face the stage of life in which she has to work her ass off to earn money so she could survive and feed her family. Speaking about family, marriage will also haunt her in her 20's. She has to find the right guy to build a little family with. Wow look how amazing a year brings to her. She blatantly needs to change her point of view about everything, but hopefully she won't change her pure heart for any reasons.

Let's see what the future holds for her

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Wow such a heavy thought, isn't it? anyway, yesterday I was celebrating my 19th birthday, folks :D I got three surprises from my friends and families (I'll upload some photos from yesterday's surprises). I also got so many birthday wishes from people around me, so it can be sure that I'll have to thank them all for wishing such a great wishes to my life. Hopefully God listens to your wishes and mine as well :) There's nothing better than being prayed by the people that love you, right?
If I'm not mistaken, there are five wishes that continuously spoken by them.

1. Me getting boyfie HAHAHAHA
2. Me getting excellent score continuously
3. Me having a great life ahead
4. Me getting TALLER and SLIMMER
5. Me being the best version of me

Hope all the wishes come trueeeeee. Aamiin

Tahu Diri

Baru bener-bener menghayati lagunya. Well, enough said...............

Eyegasm

Ladies & Gentlemen, kindly meet the love(s) of my life................


 
1. Tom Hardy 

I think I have sort of weird obsession with British guy hahaha like cmon guys how can you handle for not being melt with their sexy accents? Admit it, you just can't! Anyway, the first movie of him that I've watched is Inception, but I didn't notice him that much in that movie. I started to fall in love with him and his acting ofc when I watched him playing in This Means War. This British actor has played in various movies, such as; Inception, Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy, Lawless, This Means War, Warrior, and also TDKR. The thing that I love from him, besides his absolutely stunning face & body, is that he is a talented actor IMO. He can jump from one character into another whole different ones. He can't be serious about that. Gosh he has to stop making me out of breath every time I watch his movies. Too bad, he has been captivated by Charlote Riley's love poison.

2. Josh Duhamel

Hot daddy! the best phrase to describe this guy, isn't it? He's quite different than the other 4 hotties in this list tho'. He doesn't have that serious look in his face, in fact, he has that funny look that makes girl losing her mind instantly. Fergie must be the luckiest woman in the world right now (or maybe the other way around?) whatever~ the point is he isn't mine pfft. Just like any other great Hollywood actors, he also has played in many good movies, such as Transformers, When in Rome,  Ramona and Beezus, Life as We Know It, New Year's Eve, and Safe Haven. HUAAAH I can't help this feeling....geez

3. Jason Statham

Hahahah another English gentleman I know sorry guys. I don't expect to put him in this list, but screw me! The Italian Job has successfully made me so damn curious to find out more about him. I was so captivated by his handsomeness, no wonder why he's called handsome rob in that movie. That dazzling eyes ughhhh, can you even control your heart beating so fast while looking at those eyes? For me personally, I CAN'T! He has also made many appearances in movie industry. The Transporter, The Expandables, The Mechanic, Safe, Fast&Furious are some of the movies he had played on. The latest one is Homefront in which he plays with the fabulous James Franco.

4. Ryan Gosling

Who doesn't love him, once again? What? No one. Not even a single lady? Great! This world is damn good. Thank God you have created this- Idk what to say -absolutely stunning man. You can't have enough Gosling pictures on your phone, can you? There's something about him that no man in the world has, but I don't know what it is. His charm is beyond my reach. It strikes me right in the middle of my heart. Cmon Gosling I'm all over the place thanks to you! Many beautiful celebrities have dated with him-well it's no wonder since he is Ryan Gosling tho'. The Notebook, Lars and The Real Girl, Blue Valentine, Drive, The Ides of March, Gangster Squad, and Crazy, Stupid, Love are some of his works in movie industry.

5. Jude Law

Yes yes I know, another British, who cares anyway? He's widely known for his role as Dr. John Watson in Sherlock Holmes and its sequel. I swear I can stand just sitting next to him and listening to him saying anything all day long. Anything comes from his mouth is just like a melody to me hahahaha. I smell fangirling thingy happening here. Besides Sherlock Holmes, he also has played in various movies, such as The Talented Mr. Ripley, The Holiday, Hugo, Side Effects, and many more.


Enough said about those gorgeous men, back to reality~

I don't get people

Hi guys...what do you think of that picture? I'm terribly mad seeing it somehow. Yesterday I saw my friend posted that picture and tagged some words "sudah siap menjadi ibu rumah tangga? sungguh mulia pekerjaan ibu rumah tangga" ---ya seperti itulah kira-kira. From there, I do want to have some words about people's mindsets about housewives.

I'm a Moslem and I'm so proud with my identity. However I just don't get some Moslem's point of view about the idea of being a wife and mother as well. I mean do you try to make housewives equal to maids? Like come on. You don't have to underestimate the power of being a-stay at home- mom. It is not just about sweeping the floor, washing the clothes and dishes, doing the cooking stuffs, or taking care of the baby. It is much more than that. Me myself, I will never see my mom in that kind of way!! I repeat, I would never look my mom in that way-like never in the next zillion years. I see my mom as my hero, life biggest supporter, financial supporter :p, the best psychologist in town, and the one who has the warmest hug ever! I actually do not know how to deliberate it to you guys. What I am trying to say is just please do not ever have that traditional idea of a -stay at home- mom like the one on the picture above. If you still think that way, come one you live in the stone age or something? Like I don't get you people.

The next thing that I don't get from people is their perception about working women. Again, I'm a Moslem and I'm proud of it, yet I see some Moslems still hold on to the concept that being a-stay at home-mom is much more noble than being a working mom. Like, what?? I see there is sort of judging thing going on here. Direct or indirectly, some people have categorized the women who are willing to be a-stay at home-mom as the ideal ones and the other as the not-so-ideal ones. Do you know that Siti Khadijah, wife of Prophet Muhammad, is a successful businesswoman? It is a proof that you can be a working woman and still you can be a good damn wife for your husband, the best woman in the history moreover. So why people in this era still so left behind by putting that "sumur, dapur, kasur" tagline to a married woman?


At the end, I'm just saying tho'

Just me bragging actually

Morning lads! FINALLY FINALLY with the help of Allah S.W.T I can get through this semester (quite) happily. Let me tell you one thing! DO NOT - I repeat - DO NOT ever take 4 languages together in one semester! You'll sooner or later realize that you have no life anymore. This whole memorizing things drove me crazy. Indeed the learning process is so awesome, but wait until quizzes, mid tests, and final tests hit you. Dude seriously....

lalalala cut the crap already! now I'll show you what I got from all those languages that I took last term.

Türkçe

Merhaba! İyi gunler! Nasılsınız? Ben iyiyim tesekkür ederim.
Benim adım Yummi Zahra Sharita. Bana Yummi diyebilirsiniz. Ben Endonezyalıyım Jakarta'da oturuyorum. Ben 1995'te doğdum. On sekiz yasındayım. Ben Endonezya Üniversitesinde İngilizce bölumunde. Ben İngilizce, Türkçe, İtalyanca ve Japonca konuşuyorum.Babam müdür. Annem ev hanımı. Benim üç kardesim var. Benim iki kardeş var ve bir erkek kardeş.
Ben simdi eve film izleyiyorum. Ben dün okula gittim çunku Türkçe test var. Alhamdulillah Türkçe test cok kolay. Ben geleçek ay okula gideceğim çunku tatil. 
Tesekkür ederim arkadasım 

Italiano

Ciao! cominciamo! Tutto bene?
Come ti chiami? Mi chiamo Yummi. Sono Indonesiana  di Jakarta. Ma abito a Jakarta. Sono studentesa di lingua a Depok. Ho diciotto anni. Il mio compleano e il quattordici febbraio. Io parlo Indonesiana, Inglese, Giapponese e Italiano. Il mio padre è Wahyudi. La mia madre è Asmi. Io ho due sorelle e un fratello. Le mie sorelle e Darin è Yasmine. Darin ha quindici anni. Yasmine ha sette anni. Il mio fratello è Dimitri. Lui ha quattro anni. Mi piace gelato ma non mi piace cappucino. Oggi è il dieci decembre. è mezzanotte e dodici. Sono in camera mia e scrivo sul mio blog. 
Grazie mille  

Nihon go

Konichiwa. O genki desuka?
Watashi wa yummi desu. Indoneshia daigaku no eigo gakka no gakusei desu. UI wa yūmeina daigaku desu. Watashiwa juu hachi desu. Watashi no tanjoubi wa ni gatsu juu yokka desu. Aruite gakusei e ikimasu. Kino sūpā de miruku o kaimashita. Kyō densha de hitori de watashi no uchi e ikimasu. Kino wa watashi no ryōshin no kekkon kinenbi deshita. Watashi wa kesa asa gohan o tabemasendeshita :(
Watashi wa kotoshi nihon go o benkyoshimasu. Nihon go wa muzukashii desuga, omoshiroi desu. Watashi wa sensei ni nihon go o naraimasu. Watashi no sensei wa kirei to shinsetsu desu.
Arigatou gozaimasu.


NAHAHAHAHAHA Sorry for the errors if I made ones. I'm still a newbie tho' in those languages. And yes sorry but not sorry I can only produce simple sentences (at this point) :p I hope that I can (at least) master one language above to be my second language beside English ofc. Due to the globalization era, mastering many languages (beside english) is absolutely needed.
Learning grammar and words in those languages is not that hard after all. However, when you want to step deeper into the sentence level----well it's another different story. Let me tell you one thing, all languages have their own challenges. For Turkish language for example, it is hard for you to learn it at first because this language somehow seems like coming from another part of the world for me. However, the grammatical rules used in all tenses are almost the same, so you just have to get used to it to understand it better. Yes it is the matter of doing the exercise over and over again. Italian language has its own challenge too. Since I'm not used to using feminile and maschile to mention a thing. Ofc it made me frustrated for a while. I have to memorize which words come whit the article il and lo and which ones have to use the la and l' article. Not mention again the other articles which are un, uno, una, un'. NANANANA however once you have found the right key to open the mystery haha you can directly think that "Damn I sound so sexy and smart to speak this language." For Japanese language, because I have learned it when I was in senior high, it is not a big deal for me (at first) bahahhaha. I thought that I just have to review some materials I've learned, but I guess I was wrong. I have to study all the materials all over again since I forgot it already, nahhhh but it's okay I enjoy the process. 

At the end of the day, I found it very interesting to learn languages that I have not known before. In fact, I want to master those languages and other languages as well. I finally find my passion which is learning languages.

Mulutmu Harimaumu

---baru saja menginjakan kaki di rumah

Segera kutemui adik laki-laki kesayangnku- Dimitri namanya. Ku hampiri dia dan ku cium pipi nya hingga ia tergeli-geli akibatnya. Lalu seperti biasanya, aku berbincang-bincang kecil dengannya. Tentang apapun dan biasanya tidak bermakna perbincangan kami ini hehe maklumlah. Perbincangan kami biasanya diakhiri dengan perdebatan karena tidak ada yang ingin mengalah jika tengah membahas suatu topik.
Namun, perbincangan kami kali ini cukup berbeda -tergolong cukup unik dan cenderung dapat menimbulkan senyum di bibir bahkan.
Jadi begini ceritanya :)

Aku sedang berbicara tentang kemungkinan nama untuk Dimitri. Ku bilang padanya "Dimi, harusnya kan nama kamu bukan Dimitri Pramana tau, harusnya nama kamu tuh Dias Swara Perdana" Dimi terlihat bingung "emang iya? dias kan namanya si dias." haha bingung? Biar kujelaskan sedikit. Dias adalah nama sepupuku. Usianya tidak jauh berbeda dengan usia Dimitri.

Lalu ku bilang "lagian kamu sok imut banget sih minta dipanggil dimi, harusnya dipanggilnya dimitri dong" dimi menjawab "biarin aja dipanggil dimi." Lalu aku menggodanya dengan melontarkan ucapan seperti ini "eh apa kamu dipanggil Pram aja ya? haha iya pram aja kan nama kamu Pramana." Sontaklah dimi marah karena tidak terima dipanggil pram hehe. Dia melontarkan segala alasan mengapa ia tidak mau dipanggil dengan panggilan Pram. Tidak lama berselang, disaat kami sedang terdiam -aku sedang menonton acara TV cukup serius pada saat itu. Tiba-tiba dimi mengatakan sesuatu "eh Yu lagi ngapain?" bingunglah aku kenapa aku dipanggil Yu. Lalu ku bilang "yeeeee yu yu, emang aku mbok yu jamu apa?" lalu dimi menjawabnya "lah kan nama kamu Yummi, berarti bisa dipanggil Yu." Aku tercengang untuk beberapa saat lalu tertawa terbahak-bahak karenanya. Mama yang sedang bersama kami saat itupun sontak tertawa dan berkata "tuh pinter adiknya."

haha sungguh mulutmu harimaumu.

No news is a good news

Hi! I know I know! Calm down, people! Hold your horses..geez
You must be asking what the hell am I saying, right?

No news is a good news is a saying in which you prefer not to know any news at all. Wait, what? yes. The reason?

People, now we live in the place where a pedophile uncle happily fucked- literally fucked- his 9 month niece till she died and even if all the evidences had pointed at him clearly, he just didn't want to admit.
I'll ask you one simple question, people. Does this kind of news give you a hope of humanity? OMG what I am thinking right now is that Mars might not that bad after all.

We have been exposed with too many bad news in this world. We might re-consider our decision to live in this horrible country, right? Every time we turn on our tv, scroll down our timeline, or simply read our morning newspaper, bad after bad news are spread all over the places. Corruption, sexual harassment, divorce, some morons whom we call as representatives in government , fights, drugs, and some stupid celebrities' dramas are the things that we keep on knowing, right? Where is the news about our young people that win in some international events?

If you keep thinking that maybe you will be left behind if you don't catch up with the latest news, I guess it is better to be left with that kind of news than to feel in such misery to keep wondering why on earth we should live surrounded by some morons and jerks after reading or watching the news.

Your life, your decision tho'

ps: not keeping up with the latest news doesn't mean that you cover your eyes and ears from what happens in your surrounding after all. Mind the difference :)

HOLA

Wondering why I still wake up in the middle of midnight like this? Me too! I fell like I get the surge of energy wuuwuwu perhaps it's because of the nappy that I took before. Well, since I'm still awake and haven't felt sleepy yet, why don't I post sth here? Ikr I'm a genius.
Let's start it.

This is a story about me being a foolish back then.

Idk what was into me but I suddenly took my BlackBerry this morning and charged it. After it was fully charged, I clicked the BBM icon and scrolled thru names there and opened the history chat one by one. I also clicked the message icon and did the same thing as well. Then I realized sth.
I realized how mean I was (or am).
I mean I pushed the people that probably loved and cared about me away and I just waited for the one who had hurt me to come back. Ikr such a fool!
Now I feel so bad about them. I do really want to apologize for being a diva alike, but Idk how huhu 

However, indeed reading old conversations could bring the smile, the tears, and the anger again. It works just like a time machine.Too bad that "time machine" cannot be used to change the past.
well well well, look who regrets everything now? yeay me!

Chocolate and Happiness

Chocolate and Happiness

            Let us forget the famous proverb “an apple a day keeps the doctor away.” How if we make the new one? “A bite of chocolate a day keeps the wrinkle away.” We definitely need that new proverb. Since a long time ago, chocolate has been related to bring happiness for those who eat it. When people feel so sad, what do they eat? Chocolate! What do they feel after they grab and then eat chocolate? Happy, is not it?

Actually, this phenomenon can be proven scientifically. Due to some researches done by professionals, chocolate is proven containing phenethylamine that can trigger endorphin to be released. Endorphin itself is the hormone produced by our body when we feel happy. With the help of endorphin, we can feel much more relax and also control our emotion better. Researchers also said that the reaction produced after eating chocolate is the same with the feeling we get when we are in love. Besides that, in 1996 researchers found that chocolate also contains anandamide that can activate brain receptor just like weed does. No wonder whenever we eat chocolate, we get our mood back instantly. However, the chocolates distributed in markets nowadays contain less chocolate and more sugar which makes the benefits cannot really be felt. Moreover in America, milk chocolates contain only 10 percents of liquor chocolate where it should be 30 percents.

Despite the scientific facts about chocolate and its relation with happiness above, the other reason why it can bring happiness to people because most of the time, we are happy after eating chocolate because of the person who gives it to us not because of the chocolate itself. Mostly it is given by the ones that care and love us, for example our crush, as a symbol to show love. This makes us happy because we feel like we are special and adored. However it is just my silly assumption according to what I have ever felt.

Celebrities with Anxiety Disorders

Celebrities with Anxiety Disorders

Try to type on Google “celebrities with anxiety disorder” then tell me what you feel after reading some articles given there. Mind blowing, is not it? Celebrities from Barbra Streisand to Emma Stone are listed to have various kind of anxiety disorders. Indeed it is really shocking to know the fact that rich and famous celebrities and other well-known people like them are struggling so much to deal with their anxiety. We always think that their lifes are amazingly flawless with fame, money, and luxuries arround them. With things like that, we assume that they can get anything they want easily.

However do you know that Angelina Jolie suffers from a great self-insecurity? She never feels satisfied with herself and what she has achieved. She keeps saying that she is not pretty enough, she has not been a good actress until now, and she has not given real contribution to society. In fact, she has accomplished all of the things above. Rumor said that it is because of the tight competition in Hollywood which makes her to be like that. Also do you know that David Beckham, the very famous and highly respected English footballer, has sort of OCD to insist on things have to be in even numbers? When he finds out that things that he has are not in order that he wants, he will throw or add things to make sure that they are in even numbers. By the way, who knows that Hugh Laurie actually suffered from a mild depression while filming “House”? It went the same too to Heath Ledger who could not detach from his role as Joker in “The Dark Knight” the second film in Christopher Nolan's Batman trilogy. It made him suffered from several depressions before he decided to commit suicide due to alcohol and drug reason. They are just a few examples of celebrities who deal with anxiety.

However, quoted from calmclinic.com, there is something we can learn from those celebrities. They are not shamed to tell their “problems” to others so that they can seek for help to control their anxiety disorders. People with anxiety sometimes get shamed, become introvert, and refuse to tell their problems to their close ones or to the experts. It could be dangerous because even a light depression can lead you to do stupid thing, such as committing suicide.

Taking Chance

Taking Chance

           

            Who says that movie should have conflict in it? Taking chance will show you how a simple and flat movie could bring you into tears. This movie tells a story of a marine named Lt. Colonel Michael Strobl who escorted the body of marine name PFC Chance Phelps that died in the Iraq war. This movie starred by Kevin Beacon, the one who has played in many outstanding movies, such as a few good man, x-man, footloose, and many more. This movie was premiered on HBO on February 21st, 2009 after it was selected to be shown at the 2009 Sundance Film Festival.

It tells a story of Colonel Strobl, a behind the desk-type of marine that never participated in any wars. One day, he took an offer to escort the dead body of PFC Chance Phelps to his hometown. He said yes to that offer because PFC Phelps came from the same hometown as he did while in fact he did it because he felt guilty to see many marines who died in wars while he was living in comfortable life with his family. After he discussed this offer with his wife, he then went to Dover Port Mortuary to get some instructions before doing his duty. One of the most important instructions was that he had to bring PFC Phelps’ personal stuffs with him no matter what. Off he went to the airport to escort Phelps’ body. Along with the road, Americans gave many salutes to the fallen marine, PFC Chance Phelps, in many ways. For example, a flight attendant gave Colonel Strobl a crucifix, later on he realized that it was not meant for him, it was given by her to honor Phelps. These small yet touching scenes are the reasons why viewers get so emotionally attached with this movie.

Through this movie, we are shown how Americans do really salute their heroes no matter who they were. It is really touching to see another side of Americans that we have never seen before. Most of the time we are only shown how individualistic Americans are, how apathetic they are, and how careless they are to their surrounding, but this movie does the opposite of it. We can see soft-hearted Americans who united together as a nation to grieve the fallen body of PFC Phelps, even they did not know him personally, but they knew that this guy had made USA proud.