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Monday, 28 January 2013

Grinda&Archy: Flirtationship does hurt (1)



This is a story of two young naïve people. They have already been together for years, Grinda and Archy . Grinda is a girl next door while Archy is a sort of superstar boy. They met each other  at one unexpected meeting. Back to early summer in 2010, Grinda at that time was having fun at the beach with her friends, talking and just laughing, enjoying the sun-bathing. Then after a while, she felt like she needed a water supply to her body cause she had been there for couple hours. So, she decided to queue in a line at the ice cream bar. She felt like she was gonna die due the hotness which wrapped her in her swimsuit. She couldn’t take it anymore, she kept grumbling and crankier than ever. A 8 years-old boy which stood in front of her kind of felt annoyed by her and just stared at her in an odd way. She stared at him back with 10 times worse than she got. Archy that stood about 2 persons in front of that boy, just looked at Grinda with a smile on his face. He asked her “what’s going on? You can’t hide your frown by scolding at this boy haha”. Grinda seemed shocked since she didn’t expect reactions from anybody. “Err.Nothing I just…I felt so thirsty and I’m dying over here, this weather literally tries to kill me softly. I just need that freakin scoops of ice cream you know”  she kept grumbling about anything she could possibly talk about. “Oh there you go, here I’ve just bought it. If you feel like going to die, just take it, I’ll go buy a lemon tea there” Offered a bowl of ice cream on his hand. “really? How much do I owe you for this?” staring with moon-eyes toward him. “Nahhh.just take it. Eumh by the way, do you mind if I accompany you to walk to your place?” “It would be greatttttt! I mean yes it’s okay, I’ll be fine by that” Smiling with a horse smile. That was how those two young lovers met. They just talked and talked for anything they could possibly talk about for the days after. They connected with each other with their different characteristics. Grinda is a childish and cranky person, yet she is a talkative and easy-going person, don’t forget that she’s sort of like apathies to people around her. But then here comes Acrhy who is a super-star in every aspects; he can do music, sport, math, etc. Almost anything, but just like any other popular boys do exist in this world, he doesn’t take girls seriously . Up till now he hasn’t pick on any girls even if there is a crowd full of girls who stands next to him;asking for his certainty about the relationship. But that’s Archy. With each other, they feel absolutely complete as a “friend”. But then off course, days change, people’s feeling changes too. It brings them to the place where they never ever thought before. A place where love infiltrates the deepest layer of their friendship circle. They  hadn’t realize it at that time, not until their closest friend started to gossip about their “unhealthy “ friendship. 

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My Hijab Experience

To wear hijab is an obligation for every female Muslims in the world. Since I am a Muslim as well, I do also have that obligation to be followed. But I haven't really realized that even if I've reached my baligh age. Year by year I passed without wore hijab. I felt okay at that time because I saw there were just a few of my friends who use it. I don't know what was in to me at that time, but I just didn't feel like I was ready to wear hijab for the rest of my life. When I entered senior high school, there is a regulation where all the female Muslims have to wear hijab every time there's a religious education. And I still remember how I started to feel guilty for keeping my sins that much. I also started to think that I don't wanna people (especially males just look at me for the way I look, not the way I think or behave). I started to dig my knowledge about hijab itself, I asked my friends who already use hijab a long time ago. I asked the reason why they decided to use hijab, their feeling when use it at first, their family's comments about that, etc.I found many interesting yet kind of slapping. They all (well most of them) said that they use it because of Allah, but some of them who have used hijab since elementary school said at first it because their parents asked them to, or because it is an obligation from their school to use it. But they said day by day, they realized that they use it because of Allah too. It built my intention to use hijab higher than before. But there was always something which kept bothering me a lot at that time. I wondered how if I don't stick to what I believe someday? How if *naudzubillah* I put off my hijab because I don't feel like I want to? I didn't want it to be happened. That was why I kept holding myself to be brave to embrace it. When I entered the senior year in my high school, my intention reached almost the highest level. I asked my-already hijab-ed-friends about what they feel inside their hijab? They all said it is really comfortable even on the sunny days. That's more than enough for me to thicken my intention. I've reached my top level of intention to wear hijab when my teacher which taught religious education asked us (female Muslims) who haven't used hijab, the reasons behind why we kept acting blind to do our obligation? I kind of stuttered at that time, I didn't know what to say, because I did know that I was completely wrong and sinful. I kept thinking about that for days and nights. Until at about 3 pm in one sunny November 2011, I finally firmed up my intention to use hijab. At that time I prepared myself to go to course place. Then suddenly I just took my hijab and wore it. When I arrived at my friend's house. She was completely stunned, wonderstrucked and wondered what on earth which made me use hijab. I just silly-smiled at her and explained why I decided to use it. Ohya btw, my parents knew I decided to use hijab by text hahaha. I simply text my dad who was going with my mom at that time, like this:
"Mom, Dad, start from now on, I've decided to use hijab. I don't use it because of anybody. I just felt like I've been mature enough to realize that it is my obligation as a Muslim" then my parents said "Okay, you've decided so stick with it". My friends at school felt wondered too when I entered school with hijab on me. But they looked happy with it, my close-teachers felt it too but they congratulated me for what I've done. They looked so astonish either. In conclusion, they embrace me for the way I look from the day on and felt happy too for me.
Now, it's over a year from the first time I use this graceful clothing on me. I've been through rough days to hear people mocked at me because I haven't used the proper hijab like it has to. They mocked me direct/indirectly. I've almost defeated at one moment and thought "did I really that vile in their eyes?" But then I realized it's not them who deserve to judge me. It's only Allah, the one who created me and give me life up to this point. I do realize till now, I haven't used hijab properly because I still wear jeans pants and haven't use a long dress like it should. I work on it, I start to fix myself and the way I wear hijab to the syar'i way. Sometimes I do feel like all the words which persuade and kind of warn me to wear hijab properly do hurt me a lot. I feel like I've been cornered because of the wrong approach that I take. However I have to accept that because it's a true thing. Yes, truth does hurt. That's why you hear and say sweet-lie more than bitter-truth. Help and guide me to reach my syar'i hijab, I work on it.
I think that's my 1 year experience since the first time I decided to wear Hijab :) Hope you can be inspired and be a better person than me.
ps: I felt so touched when I hear from my friend that my mom actually felt so much happy when she knew at the first time that I will use hijab. Actually my mom really wanted me to use hijab since a long time ago and she always said it on her pray. Yes she prays for me :") what can I ask more than that? I love you mom, a lot!

xoxo
Yummi

Sunday, 27 January 2013

Campus Goes To School (SMAN 13) 2013

Today I'd like to tell you about the event which was held by the alumni of SMAN 13 Jakarta (class of 2012). The event was run on 21-23 and 25 of January 2013. It was our gift to our juniors whom will face the campus life soon. In there, all of us as the fresh graduated alumni told all the things which might haven't been known by our juniors about college life. Starting from the variates of Universities and faculties that they can choose, the passing grade, kind of tests to enter those universities, the college fee, etc. It gave so many advantages for all parts. For the juniors, ofc it helped them a lot to understand even more about the life they will face soon. For the school, the teachers and all staffs do not have to worry if their students won't understand about the whole process the will be going through. Last but not least, for us as the alumni, we totally having so much joy there because we can meet up again after 6 months been separated by distance. All of us gathered together, looking so much good with "almamater" we put on us. What can we ask more than a simply meeting?
I'll tell you a little bit about the event.
On the first day, all of the universities that took part in this event opened a booth. In there, all juniors can ask anything they'd like ask to us. We with our knowledge, will try our best to answer kind of questions that they were curious about.
On the second day, actually it was almost the same like the first day. But there was a different thing here, half of the universities presented from class to class; UNPAD, UGM, UNBRAW, actually I sort of forget the rest of the universities.
On the third day, it was the same like the second day. The unvi which presented were UI, IPB, ITB, UNDIP, STT, Poltekkes, UNHAS, etc.
And on the last day, there was a talk show. In that show, 3 of us; Intan (accepted in UNDIP from the invitation way), Fadhli (accepted in UGM from the written test of SNMPTN), and Ami (accepted in UNPAD from the "mandiri" test).
We were having so much fun there, I hope all the juniors were having fun too and ofc we also hope they will get the information that we've been delivered to them.

Here are some photos of us there. Enjoy XD












Thursday, 17 January 2013

Flood: can't see anything but water & trashes

Today, 17th January 2013 is the day when our beautiful capital city, Jakarta feels the 5 years-periodic of flood. Literally Jakarta is surrounded by water from north to south. For me myself who lives in North of Jakarta, I gotta tell you fellas, life never been easy here. Like today, the rain which falls continuously since night till now 12.30 p.m causes the level of water in some rivers overflow and BANG!! you know what will come after it, ofc it's flood. Flooding everywhere.....
In my house, flood reaches till my calf (well maybe it's just for me since I'm not really tall after all). Worse than that, there are some leaks inside my house and causes waters also flowing inside my house. Yeah I told you life never been any easy here.
Since 7 in the morning, my dad(thanks God he already came back from Bali), my mom, and me had been so hectic to take out the waters inside by using some household appliances; scoop, bucket, sponge, hose, etc. Besides that to prevent the flood from outside comes inside, my father & my two uncles made sort of like dam in front of my door. It's quite effective since the water doesn't come inside. Thanks God it didn't add our burden about this flood issue. At 10 am, all of us surrendered to take out the water inside my house. We won't go anywhere, I mean it is still raining. There's no chance for us to get out from this rain problem. The only way that we can do is wait until the rain stops and then fix it after.
What unique in every flood-season is all the children go outside and just swim in the flood haha. It's just so amusing you know. Yes, children always see the good side from every problems that they face. How can't we as adults to do the same thing like them? hahaha.
Btw sad story comes from my neighbor. Two siblings died at the same time this morning, too bad the ambulance won't come because of the flood. Till now they haven't been buried :( Hope they can rest in peace.
I think that's all, I still stuck in the middle of flood inside my house. I'll share some pictures of flood which happens in my area. Enjoy (?)
















pretty awful, huh? Yes it is, and it is worse than it looks.
#SaveJakarta #Jakarta'sFlood #PrayForJakarta

Monday, 14 January 2013

What is wrong with you(government)?

The hottest news now across many UI students is about the forced eviction which happens to the marketeer in Pocin. It-the forced eviction- happens a lot in this country. I've seen the news for many times. It looks like we (as the small people) are the wrong side. And you  (government) are always be the right side no matter how hard it is for us to understand. Which is right?
I surely am not the kind of person who have a willingness to do demonstration. But it doesn't mean that I don't give a damn to the villainy which is done by our honorable government. To see the facts from the crime scene, God! I can't hold my sadness. It hurts me a lot to see women are crying, a lot of innocent kids' face. Hopeless faces looked everywhere.
I know, I don't really understand the whole problems. But I'm not blind. I can make a difference between what is right and what is wrong. I know it because I still have this in my heart, I have a humanity inside. Do YOU have it, people? Do you?
What I can't understand further is that all the buildings of those hopeless marketeer are forced to be evicted but then on the other hand, We can see there's a mini-market stands strong right close to the-forced evicted-buildings.
I just don't get it, if YOU, our honorable government think that the existence of the "disturbing buildings" needs to be demolished. Why on earth you give permission before? It's just like after you "rack-rent" all the seller there, you just husshh them away without any permission first? What kind of human is that?
Though many arguments talking about this stuffs, I do get it people. For you who think that what my companion and all the seller do is just a useless and kind of attention seeker, please try positioning yourself like them. What would you do? You can easily say "Duh, it's so fckin disturbing demostation" and stuffs, because you are not them. You are not the ones who have to put your life on the line by selling some books in that place. You can easily say that that forced eviction is already right. But can you prove that? Even the police says that there are no legal permission coming out from them. So, what on earth that you make as your base to do the eviction?
I know I'm not like my companion who put their soul-literally-on the line supporting the marketeer in there. But I believe I can help them to open some not-open minded people through this writing.

PS: actually you(government) are elected by us(small people) to help us keep alive through the life-struggling, but now it seems like you are the one whom we have to struggle with :) Where's your- in the name of qur'an- promise? Are you blinding by the bling of the temporary life? Remember, maybe we are the ones who can save you later :)